Perish

There are some words that I cannot fathom and assemble it to form a complete sentences. There are some words that I can’t even fit them into some of my writings. There are some situation that stops me from making a clear sentences that depict my emotion and what have been bothering my mind quite recently.

I guess this what happened every time I tried to post something here, undoubtedly just for the sake of updating. Please mind this update, cause I sort of drown into this melancholy feeling lately. My thoughts is eating me alive. It’s pathetic. But I solemnly swear I would never sort all of this things out without the help of my beloved friends.

And of course, by writing this down.

I’m not good in writing poetry or any kind of nice words. However I feel like just writing it down. Whatever you call it.

It happens in a flicker of an eye.

A tick before a tock.

A gust of cold wind

A flash of

bright light

A short period of time

It stays

Unnoticed

Blurred

Hidden

Sealed

Like a best kept secret

It swiftly unfold

Time after time

Days after days

Until you come to realize

Where does it come from

Where is it heading to

And why is it happening

Right in every time you meet those eyes

It takes some part of you away

You try to run and take it back

But it stays there

Keeps you longing

Wanting

Needing

It swiftly grow when it shouldn’t be

It swiftly stays where it shouldn’t be

It craves more than it should

And it expect

What it shouldn’t expect.

It comes to the moment when

The time knocks you on the head

It asks you to stop whatever you’re doing

It warns you to take a moment to look back

“Where you’ve gone so far?”

“Where do you want to be?”

“Do you see that huge wall standing in between

your way?”

“It’s restricted”

“You won’t be able to pass through. You’re not allowed to”

It left

you with two options

Go all the way there, climb, stay and be prepared to fall

Stop what you’re doing, let

it go, go back to where you were.

And stay there.

Then, you wouldn’t stumble.

“You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy. So let them go, let go of them. I tie no weights to my ankles.”

-Belle-